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March 2018



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BtVS Ficlet: Come As You Aren’t

Title: Come As You Aren’t
Fandom: BtVS
Author: badly_knitted
Characters: Willow, Buffy
Rating: PG
Spoilers: Halloween.
Summary: Halloween is the time to dress as you’re not, but Willow’s having second thoughts about the whole concept.
Word Count: 386
Written For: juliet316's prompt 'Author's choice, author's choice, the one night of year you can choose to be somebody/something else altogether and nobody bats an eye,' at fic_promptly.
Disclaimer: I don’t own BTVS, or the characters. They belong to Joss Whedon.

Halloween is the one night of the year when a person can completely reinvent themself, be anyone or anything they choose to be and nobody bats an eye because most of them are doing exactly the same thing. That’s the gist of what Buffy’s trying to explain to Willow with her ‘come as you aren’t’ speech.

Intellectually, Willow gets it, but she’s not Buffy, she’s Willow, computer geek, and this outfit so isn’t her. The very thought of going out in public looking like this leaves her quaking is her borrowed boots. The skirt is too short, the top too low cut, she’s bare and naked around the middle and… and… She’s even wearing makeup and lipstick. Looking in the mirror she sees a stranger, a hot stranger, and that creeps her out even more.

She can’t be the sexy creature she sees reflected in the mirror. It’s one thing to dress this way and entirely another to be this girl. Willow doesn’t know how to act, how to speak, how to even walk as this other person, all she knows is how to be herself. What was she even thinking letting Buffy talk her into this?

Deep down she knows Buffy is just trying to help her come out of her shell a bit so that boys, namely Xander, might start taking an interest in her. Willow’s grateful to her friend for caring and for trying, but this is too much too soon.

Willow wishes she could be the girl Buffy is trying to make her into, and maybe sometime in the future she will be, if she ever finds the nerve. For now though, there’s only one thing she can do, and so she does it.

The ghost costume covers everything; the skimpy outfit, the bare belly, the carefully applied make-up… They’re all still there, but Willow is safely undercover, where she can be her usual geeky self. Buffy is going to be disappointed in her, but that’s something Willow can live with. After all, she’s already disappointed in herself for chickening out.

One step at a time; at least she’s wearing the outfit Buffy picked out for her, even if no one else will see it. That has to count for something, right?

Straightening her sheet, Willow heads downstairs to face the music.

The End


Nice glimpse into Willow's head!
Thank you! I adore Willow, she reminds me of me at that age, so shy and self-conscious, and awkward with boys.
Poor Willow - all that hotness and she was so afraid to embrace it for so long. That's one of the best things Tara did for her.
I most respectfully disagree, I think Willow was beautiful as a gal who desired modesty, and when she started to embrace sexuality her life took a severe downturn, as far as morals went- and *those* (morals) are what matter, not necessarily people, but moral standards; or at least the last part is how I see it.
Yes, Tara helped Willow to be everything she could be, and Willow blossomed into quite a remarkable woman.

Thank you!
I agree and I think Tara would have been proud of the woman Willow became. Have to say Kennedy was a sad replacement for her, though (imo)
I wasn't keen on Kennedy, but I doubt Willow would say with her for long, she was a kind of rebound romance, a way for Willow to prove that she could move on and be with someone again after Tara.
I am totally with you on this. I do think Kennedy helped her be strong when she needed to be in a way Buffy couldn't.
Buffy had too much else on her mind, she needed Willow's support, but Willow needed support too and Kennedy was there for her. I can't see it lasting long once the battle was over though.
I agree.

Halloween Willow.

I love Willow's choice to be a ghost, her as a prostitute was exactly the *wrong* message she couldn't be sending and still be safe, but a ghost was a plus for her; plus it was a modest outfit she was wearing in that episode as a ghost... and I loved her desire to be modest.
One of my very favorite things in this tale is how you describe her thoughts and feelings, congratulations on that, you did a wonderful job!
I thought this was a fun tale, and sincerely ask you for your permission to share this on my page, as it is spectacular and reflects her personality so well, as a traditional Jewish girl at that time in her life.
Sincerely your fan;

Re: Halloween Willow.

Thank you, I'm glad you liked my insight into Willow's thoughts.

Feel free to post links and the header on your page, but I prefer not to have entire fics reposted as I like any comments to come to my journal so I can read them and reply.