Characters: Ianto, mentions Lisa, Jack, Team.
Written For: Challenge 469: Long / Longing at tw100.
Spoilers: Cyberwoman and its aftermath.
Summary: Ianto has lost so much but there’s one thing he misses most of all.
Disclaimer: I don’t own Torchwood, or the characters.
A/N: This one’s a double drabble.
Not so long ago, Ianto had been trying to save his girlfriend while carrying on a purely physical relationship with his boss, in order to keep him from finding the half-converted Cyberwoman hidden in his basement.
It hadn’t been an ideal situation, not by any stretch of the imagination, but over the course of a few months it had come to seem normal. He’d known what he was doing, had everything planned out; fix Lisa and then get out, leaving Torchwood and Jack behind.
But then everything had fallen apart; Lisa was discovered, tried to kill the team, and Ianto had lost everything; his girlfriend, his future, Jack’s trust, and whatever had been developing between them.
Now, even though he’s been allowed to return to work he knows nothing will ever be the same again. The teammates who used to ignore him now watch him warily, and Jack keeps his distance, moody and withdrawn.
Ianto doesn’t blame them; it’s understandable, he betrayed them all and they have every right to distrust him. He deserves to be punished, and yet it hurts so much. Alone at night, he finds himself longing not for Lisa, but for the warmth of Jack’s touch.